Schmuck genocide

2006-07-27T07:41:00.000-07:00

Are you in doldrums? cause i'm having one.
Fnn projects seem to thwart my anger.
Oh lord! Can i stop myself from grumbling before i start working on something exuberant.

A ceaseless smile deduct your deep aybss.
We are having a graduation over a crimson joy.

2006-07-22T19:47:00.000-07:00

It's not a child's play,it's nor a hare-brained game.
Finish the last lap and get prepare for your achievement.
Bring it on dandy!

Currently music play:
1)Boyz ii men - End of the road.
2)Coldplay-Yellow
3)The cranberries- Dreams
4)Death cab for cutie - Soul meets body.

2006-07-22T07:05:00.000-07:00

"Sometimes happiness happen here''

Some people evoke and elicit my feeling.
And thus, people pressume an anonymous words;actions.
I'm astounded by someone who usually keep me on my nerves,it's totally appalling.
All hail the heaven!
I'm trying to confute that guys are not jerks,but they always are.
They are a selfish creatures and they just fuck you up without you knowing his ultimate motives.
Don't harbour that hatred towards another guy, as it's very useless to do so.
I have an experience towards a cheat-whore love. I've been through and i know it's heart-aching to behave like that.
Don't feel jerky or shamefaced,because you already done that. It's not easy to keep my mind off and start over again.

I'm browbeat by the horror of love gravity.
Never fall into the wrong track again.

2006-06-12T13:33:00.000-07:00

''first step:POWER,second step:POWER,last step:POWER''

I'm trying to augment my decay life.
Do u think slothful and sluggard person can make a better life of themselves?
The answer is ''WRONG''
Never underestimate your life.As your life can turn out to be smashing,outrageous,inordinate and lastly;power madness crowding your life.
I always diverting my life to a horrible one.
And thus, do i believe in love?
I don't, because i know that love always has its own motive.
Until i met one,my life almost turn chaos and out-of-control.
It's a heartburning which indigest my stomach.

''My burly love seems a prank,but notable. ''

2006-04-17T04:43:00.000-07:00

I'm raving hard to revel jollification of humans shadow.

women and men tend live in a vanity fair.
It shown a vague and blurred explanation between the both gender.
Mens are conceited jerks, salacious whom addicted to pornography 24/7.
They are realistic who dump womens, as if it is having a clotheshorse hobby to play.
They always comply to their own need and fuck, hack care womens on their fragile heart.
Women and men have a part to play, and the right system to handle each other.
Mens treat this whole thing as whore-play, doesn't consider womens as their pride and dignity.
We get by with acquaintances, mates and having a date which is a great escapes of pressures.
Mens are not sleaze but totally unoriginal, they just dick around and pick ladies on the club whereby they will have a hot ''make out'' later on.
They think its an amazement thing to do, instead their penis hurt thousand miles.
Oh shit!

2006-02-28T09:02:00.000-08:00

You have been doing those scrappy stuff in your life. Have you ever realised that you are actually repined over the dreadful things u have done. Do u like someone rape away your fatigue jobs, so that you could pause for awhile and let it go slow. It is make void, and inconstant solemn promise made by yourself. If all the jokes you make are far-fetched to know and farcicial, it's eminently famous.

''Just stand by me, nobody knows and be indulgence over the spirit shown.
You won't regret throwing up your meal on sunday'' And i shall rape off your unknown feeling hiding on the wardrobes.

2006-01-19T07:23:00.000-08:00

I'd rather plunged into exhaustion today.
My entire day seems crippled and immobilize.
If you could understand how i'd felt,it would be a creed.
So encumber over my responsibilities in everything.
So weigh down and rutted,the brevity of my disintegrate is written down in a piece of tattered book.
The hardbitten and cynical person has no longer swallowed her last part of sentence.

''You often make a painful decision and rather being so indecisive,but you made way for the others,so that you know that you've create the time which does not slipped away.''

2006-01-16T06:29:00.000-08:00

I feel so fucking depressed.
Suppressed all my feelings insides.
I'M SO MOODY..
It's been days since i'd behave like that.
Sorry if i throw my tantrums to my fellow friends or my words turning blunt,pardon me!
I'm trying to repressed all the awful and rotten feelings.
I can sense the negative perception crawling under my toes.
Sometimes i felt that i'm an acquaintance to all my friends or just a hi-bye friend if that's count.
They just needed me most when they are feeling low-spirited.Otherwise,i'm treated like a trash bag all the times.
I'd tried to forbear all those hurtful intentions and conspiracy as i know they will realised how much they need me as much as i do.

If i'm treated like trash,you will be forever unforgiven.
If the secret anguish make the biggest mistakes,we shall go and live in seclusion.

2006-01-14T22:55:00.000-08:00

I feel the state of present is so dishonourable.
People are disgruntled with their own life.
Thus,they get vexed up over the small trivial things.
People are fraudulent and on the surface,they are the two-faced figure.
They detriment themselves,and detract from the valuable and most impressive way.
Eventually,i felt rueful for all the things i'd done.
I let my guts run high.
I let my emotional escape away.
I consign and dissemble my motive in a charades.
We stopped chivvying each other,and it's time to fly high.
We shall let go each other breathe,and stay on the runway track.
We never know when fate going to bring us together.
Literally,we grieved with forlorn.

When everything feels like the movies,
You'd bleed just to know that you're alive.

2006-01-11T08:10:00.000-08:00

I want my sleeping mood back!
I want my sleeping mood back!
I want my sleeping mood back!
I want my sleeping mood back!

2006-01-07T13:13:00.000-08:00

I'm utterly disappointed at everyone.
They gave me additional misunderstanding.
The promiscuous problems is landing me in trouble.
I realised one thing and i'm caught in the trap.
I felt betrayed and no one is there to pick me up.
Be self-abashed over the provocation of man-kind.
They seems controvert over the main issues,and they are self-centered.
Friends among themselves making use over each other for the sake of standing-point.
They dare me to move,dare me to move.
They dare me to lift myself up off the floor.
Like today never happened,today never happened before.
Redemption has words to spell.
Maybe forgiveness is well understood when you fell.

2005-12-27T11:10:00.000-08:00

''Classy trash may be hysterical over the madness''

I may seems an inarticulate person.
often make mistakes,but life's behave like that itself.
I dress down the gusto on necessary tears.
Don't taunt at our madness,we should live life in an ebullience spirit.
How we document our lifestyle is extremely important.
I locked myself in the room,without sprinting away from the corridor.
I hide myself,not wanting to let family members catch any sight of me.
I feel like a timid mouse,who crawled out of the cavity in the middle of the night.
It was an utterance behaviour.
I slowly walked out of the front door with my bravery.

2005-12-24T12:53:00.000-08:00

So much controversy to bear.
Thought the last call ends everything,concede to the last yield.
I have a strong feeling,but it's that esoteric to describe.
It seems profound to mention.
You know the eagerness of touching you,under your greenish skin.
You are beautiful to mention,you are perfect to be hear.
The wretched feeling seems alert,it's only a memento to be perceive.
I celebrate my satisfaction,inundate myself into indignation.
I'm not tricky,but on standby.
If you had an obssesion,darling dear get a grip.

2005-12-12T11:20:00.000-08:00

The guttural voice of arbitration

You never know the reason of changing.
Headstrong spread like wildfire.
It's seems a subterfuge,but unintentionally to create this stratagem.
I hate to say,i hate to rant.
Utterly felt weary at this point of time,capitulate in a draughty night.
Surrender away all the gaunted smile,surrender all the misery.
Let me live once again.
Let me hold my last breath.
Let me exorcise the spell.
You never know the reason of changing.
Couldn't i let them pass me by,if only i could live twice.
I would the reason of changing.

2005-12-06T10:07:00.000-08:00

Trouncing anger in one second.
Sweep away an ungainly and threaten smile.
The grouse tyrannize the vexation.
I traduce all scar into bedlam.
I'm on my way to convalescent,i'm in the doldrums.
A sham smile terrify the crowds.
Set in motion to avulse the mask.
You are mistaken,avowedly announced my mistake.
You kill half of my breath,i finally breath.
You make my life uneasy,you play tricks on me.
You disappeared,i could hardly see you.
Goodbye,abate all those grieved.

2005-12-01T09:44:00.000-08:00

I flounder over the room.
Something stain on me,somehow annihilate the dust.
Catechize the serial question i had,i stared up my window.
Charade of obnoxious games on me,the mind unbreathing.

You deviate far away,it's end tonight.
Too late to feel disgruntled,too late to feel disgusted.
You put on a devilry mask,deviously doing underhanded jobs.
Never know what you want,never know the obstreperous red-light.

Gender-bashing splotch all over the red-note.
We have too much discrepency,and those dissimilarity is unaccepted.
Whimper in a second,end it all.
Unremitting apology and explanation couldn't mend the old patch.
Leave a scar in a corona,one-sided existence grudge.

2005-11-22T00:41:00.000-08:00

Dinner and dance seems a threat to me

Rushing time,prom is on this thursday.
I doubt i would have time to prepare.
I hate it!I detest it!
It comes too fast.
Hairdo,make-over,heels and accessories haven't done.
My god!I'm dead doomed this time round.
Regret submitted my payment,dammit.
Too fast too furious,been lazing alot and the prom almost slipped off my STM mind.
Kill the bugs please..

2005-11-21T01:16:00.000-08:00

*The prolongation of deathwish*

Foreboding the strife and turmoil.
I'm deaden with loam of loudness.
I defame the wound which growing over me.
I developed an aversion to the things around.
I can't smile in genteel way,i can't promulate properly.
I try to palliate those suffering,i find it diffcult to do it.
Everytime i try,to pacify the loving peace.
Everytime i try to temperate myself.
Everytime i try to be easy.
It occlude with those esoteric.
I obliterate those pain,but it still existing.
Those puzzling things can't get me out of head,maybe close my eyes could take-up my space of misery.
Maybe dosage of anodyne would relieve pain.
Maybe we should learned how to cope with feelings,and meted out with some whims.

2005-11-16T21:45:00.000-08:00

The lyrical lies

She sang the latest song for you.
Sitting on a hot spot with you.
She's behaving coquettish with you,you are coping with her lust.
You virtually on your success of love,it turned out to be false.
It is intangible,like entangle string.

She's sitting down the hot spot you used to be.
A cold feeling gripped her heart,and it contains alot of mysteries.
She wished she knows,she wished you could break that spell.
Weeped up her melancholy,she wished you would know.
You endeared yourself and wished she could be there.

She sang softly,he felt his face burning all over.
He vaguely feel that something falling down on his face.
He wished she would not stop the lullaby she sang,incessant routine.
His mind is besieged his antics and outrageous behavious.
She regurgitated the past,and reflected her innermost fear.

She wrote a old lament,wished he could know her mind.
She would changed the abolished love,literally changed the season of love.
She just wished the melodies she sang is non-stop,to melt his fragile heart.
She grasped her breath,the wail of sirens could be heard.
Romanized the surrounding with a piece of music.

2005-11-15T21:13:00.000-08:00

Last night i dynamically feeling disarray.If you know how i feel for you,this is to you 'Farhan'

You are in earnest of showing your intention.
Let me know,i wished to know.
Your empty-minded around the loop-windows.
Got your whirling sound.
Got your depredation.
Got your glumness,which wrapped around your face.

Let me know,i wished to know.
You circuitously meander around.
Your dirty little secret is fasten.
Don't feel asphyxiated,i would be there to control your breath.
Your churlish manner seems rebel,but still,i'm here for you.
Whatever i said,whatever i do,i just want you to know.

Unawared of the sentence i said,i just wish you would know.
We used to utter a cackle over the phone.
We used to talk everything.
We used to share secrets,but it's unfilled with a buzz.
Whatever i said,whatever i do,i just want you to know.

The gusty wind just blown over us,and you are back for good.
Don't be foolish
Don't be stupid.
Suicides brings you to the brink of death.
It's brazenly shameless,and brashly assertive.
Please mate,beseech you.

2005-11-13T08:49:00.000-08:00

*You, doing that thing you do
Breaking my heart into a million pieces,
Like you always do
And you, dont mean to be cruel
You never even knew about the heartache
I've been going through
Well I'm trying trying to forget you girl
But it's just so hard to do
Every time you do that thing you do

I know all the games you play
And I'm gonna find a way to let u know that
You'll be mine someday
Cause we, we'd be happy can't you see
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you

But it's just so hard to do
Every time you do that thing you do

I don't ask a lot girl
But I know one thing's for sure
It's your love I haven't got girl
And I just can't take it anymore

Cause we, we'd be happy can't you see
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you
And keep you here with me
Cause it hurts me so just to see you go
Around with someone new
And if I know you you're doing that thing
Everyb day just doing that thing
I can't take you doing that thing you do

And keep you here with me
Cause I'm trying trying to forget you girl*

The wonders/That thing you do

2005-11-13T02:29:00.000-08:00

*All the classmates of 4 fortitude,i thank you for all the times we had.
Regardless of anything,i feel nostalgic for you all.I know you guys are just beside me,beside my yellow-lights.We gone through thick and thin,All the teachers preaching and those undying hardwork is memorable.*

-->I dreamt of you last night,you are just beside me.
Our gaying jokes haven't stop,it's like a usual event we had.
We utter a chuckle laugh,like it would never end.
We cherish all the times we have together,like we always do.
It's the boorish and uncouth things we've done.
We salvage the friendship,and it's done for all.
I appreciate,really appreciate the good and bad times together.
I know you're besides me,those cushy feeling accumulate my mind.
Conjesture word is hard to be known,i miss you all.
All those words,action are buried within my crazy-heart.<--

2005-11-12T19:25:00.000-08:00

You blog routinely,what is the purpose?
Update your personal life,is it value?
Some people think it's for some purposes,some people feels it's valueless.
You interrogate to entreat an answer,i couldn't.
It sound sickly to blogging,sometimes it's the truth.
So purposeless,i really feel that.
I wanna changed myself to invisible person.
Concealed my left-over scar.
Give you,my temperature helps you expel away frigid.
It's okay not to see me,to make one's heart ache.
I wanna changed myself to invisible person.
I'm remain under,tears tumble down.
In a state of confusion,i'd leave a fingerprint.
Towards you,it's like no heartbeat.
The left-over kiss is undesirable.

2005-11-11T09:51:00.000-08:00

Feeling so whacked today,i've woken up at 7.Imagined getting dragged out of the bed,that feeling is dreadful.
I'd had to attend some family matters,they just need me.
It's so dragging,i'm feeling like a piece of useless shit and i'm belligerently feeling so combative that i wanna engaged in a war.
Don't drag me out of the bed,until i've woken up.
It's lifeless and i'm born barren.
I'd got back home around five to change and went out again with cousin
Nothing much,guessed it's the dopey routine i've done.
Recently,been receiving much from a prankster or whatever.Moreover,it is such a disturbance and i feel like slamming the fucking faulty phone.
It sucks big times actually,and i'd wish i wasn't born here.
I've been shedding my tears lately,i don't know.
Grief-stricken or something,i've been feeling bad on recent.
One sharp blazor knife just stabbed on my fragile heart.
It's gutturally damaged my harsh-sounding.
This would never end,never ending.

2005-11-10T23:12:00.000-08:00

*Stand strong,believe in yourself.*

Please let me go,let me go.
I'm grisly causing disgust,ground swell on the earth.
It seems so hard,so hard that i'm losing grips.
The grimmer and relentless feeling seems so begrudge.
I wrote a song and it was called yellow.
I turned back the time,it was all yellow.
You took all the strength i had,just now to fall apart.
I'm trying hard to mend this broken heart.
You changed my face for one second,you changed my face.
I lift my face upclose you,i'm not that stupid little person.
I've got my life to live.
I've got strength to hold.
So what you done me wrong?I grew strong.
I learned how to get along.

2005-11-09T16:45:00.000-08:00

Anticipate for the better cause.
It's the test of time.
Draw the line somewhere,it limitation is satisfied.
Stand strong,always believe in yourself.
Not others,your insight is right.
Don't let them manipulate you.
Do you know?You have to know?!
All that glitters is not gold.
''Showed the appearance of a thing or a person can be deceiving.''
Regardless of any unpleasant thing that happens,there is inevitably something better.

2005-11-08T23:43:00.000-08:00

Imperturbable and nippy night can be an attraction,definately.
By sitting down,besides the overflowing scenery,an unflappable just muddle through it effectively,definately true.
Some blasphemous conversation just getting ungodly,it just blindfold the sight of a pair of glimmer eyes.
How do you know what we were doing?
How do you know we were talking bitchly?
Do you know?Do you really want to know?
It's a holy sacred things to do.
We loved it,we really do?
I'm blameworthy,shouldn't lie.
I'd really shouldn't,felt remorseful.
Things will unmask,soon;i believe it.
It would detonate everything,i believe it.
It was certainty,never ever repetend the same mistakes again.
I'm sorry,really contrite..

*I'm ending*

2005-11-07T15:29:00.000-08:00

''Posting dashboard confessional.''

Congitate all the shilly-shally thoughts.
I couldn't get them out of my weak and ill-defined brain.
Facetiously trying to make it amusing,but it deteriorate in second-rate.
An enigmatic storyline puzzling me,how do i know?
It flicker non-stop.
I said i'm weak it's true.
I want an answer,it's true.
Oh saintly,helped me with my bemused thought,it's true.
To the consecration of god,help me with these disruption,i plead for you.
Not a meany,but i'm trying hard to stand-strong.
It's a self belief,and i believed in my-self.

*Go ahead and mislead me,i don't really care.
Go ahead with your bullshit,i can't do anything.
Go ahead and do whatever that please you,i ain't giving a single-fuck on you.
Go ahead with your drunkeness,it's seemingly fruitless.
You forever fault,don't put a blame on me,this sound repellent*

2005-11-06T01:16:00.000-08:00

What happened?
Why are you drunk,what's wrong,baby?
Oh my dearly friend,why were you disoriented yourself.
Are you depressed?tell me baby,tell me.
You dessipate all the your wonderful life,what wrong?
I'm distraught with grief and overwrought.
You're morbidly showing an unwholesome life,you are ruining yourself.
Back to normal,back to yourself.
You know how i feel?
I'd morosely feeling sulken.
I'd moped with those depression,do you know.
An unpleasantness is finite.

2005-11-05T19:24:00.000-08:00

''Like the lazy ocean sway with me.''

This is our armistice day.
We stopped fighting,isn't it?
I'm free from your clutches,being an armless soul is pretty pathetic.
Your contradiction makes me out-of-place.
I'd couldn't find the reason,my mind is running randomly.
Like you as my father
Like you as my brother
Like you as my friend
Like you as my lover.
The beastly feeling almost made my mind collapsed.
You know?Do you know that?
I'm full of desire,full of passion.
Wished to bring you home and entertain our feeling in the dark.
It is a hallucination,it would never come true,never.
The ramshackle feeling keep avoiding me,i need to repair again.
Resound our feeling in the darker place,and had a combination of biased look on us.

2005-11-05T02:36:00.000-08:00

I tried to penetrate my scattered thoughts.
I'd schooled my features into a mask of sadness.
I was bored,i tried to picture myself in the scene.
Boredom is an extremely difficult feeling to tolerate or overcome as it dulls the senses and agitates the mind.
It signal the common rituals i'm having now.
From dawn to dusk,i've been ruminating over something.
You know it became a burdensome,do you discovered?
My vision is dull with black and white.
I want to cry,just cried out my heavy-hearted feeling.
You told me we were good friends,but you lied severly.
You don't give a damn about my feeling,but i cared.
Your discordant words had make me given up hopes on you.
I used to be right there for you,i always tell you.
But,we drifted apart ever since you'd distrust me.
You uncovered the truth,like what you used to do.
It lead to detestation,it is true.
I'm not a liar,but you accused me in severe.
Your choleric temper made me felt suffocated.
What a chronicle disaster i'm having.I'd really hoped thing would turned out good.

2005-11-04T00:52:00.000-08:00

This is a dedication to my best pal.

You are an invincible girl,which cannot be conquered.
You shield me from peril,avoiding me from having minor abrasion.
You abet me with your encouragement,tell me anything,i will do it for you,i promised.
I'm feeling gaiety,the feeling is unknown,but it's generalize its sweetness.
Despite all the misconception,we win bang and thrust.
You warmly touched my splinter heart,i'm thankful.
Just tell me anything,i will do it for you,i promised.
You encircled me,like we were playing merry-go-round,it's all in the past.
We prattled in our childish manners,it was okay i guessed.
We shall retrospect all the good-times we had in school,it's unforgettable.
Sometimes things are undecipherable,we have to prepare.
Sometimes things are unconstraint,but we learned to accept fate.
But you are my ally,i'd glad you entered my life,making me the happiest person in my life.
We asunder into broken-pieces,picked it up,i will listened to you once again.
Despite all those deride,you'd just tell me anything,i will do it for you,i promised.
Let's narrates:''We are friends forever,let those wretched feeling flown away''.

2005-11-03T00:45:00.000-08:00

*We should ass with an attitudes,implying those assholes*

I've been back with my monotonous individuality life.
Living in a abominable lifestyle.
As it goes''My life is brilliant,my world is bitchless,my loved is pure.''
My life overcomed with austerity and asceticism.
It's getting nauseating and viled to my own presumption.
This is the indication of my heart-rending life.
I want to put an end,really putting an end to my awful life-styles.
This is not an adjournment,but i'm adjudicated my fucking routines.
I don't want a plainless life,but a miscellaneous life.
I've perceived everything,i'd need to indoctrinate myself.
I know this adjustment seems strenuous,but it is to extricate an uncompromising and unyielding life.
Aquainted all those bitterness and libellous life,i really putting an end to it.

The motion sleep

2005-10-26T17:17:00.000-07:00

The bottomless of carcase

I'm mentioning about my life,you know.
It's apparent to the bunch of immoral-kids.
I'm a piece of shit,lying on my couch on the broad day-light.
Refraining all the boredom i'm having now,you know.
It's become a repetitive motion,you know.
The Tv is ongoing in the middle of the night,i'm lying on my 'LOOSE' bed.
Unsleepy me seems drowsy,i wanna snooze off,but i can't,you know.
Nonetheless,the flat is awakened by the howling noise,it's became disturbance,you know.
I have been keeping all the humdrum with me,it's seems morose.
Not only me,everybody keep changing,it's appeased to the tedious routine they have,you know.
I'm waiting,still waiting,for a person to sing a song for me,the alleviate voice i'm longing for,you know.
Just sing me a song,i would have a comfortable sleep,you know.
Maybe it's just an angel from the nightmare,you know.

2005-10-23T23:54:00.000-07:00

This is my all-time favourite movies ''A Lot Like Love,starring Ashton Kutcher and Amanda Peet.''

I think i'm leaving for your own good,and my own good too.
It's seem expressionless,i don't know why,asked yourself.
Let our friendships elapsed away,ejaculated all the clownish thing we used to do.
Our booty call has come to an end,it's time to end,i feel it's time.
I used to call out my sorrow and sadness to you,it turned elusive to be count.
Everything turned humourless,monotonous,i tried very hard to hold back my emotional,it's seems useless.
You found your happiness,it's time to let you off,what we had promised doesn't make sense like what it used to be.
All those immaterial things you used to write for me,had become blank.
You had your Alot like love,i had mine.
We gone our separate way,this is true.
Neither offensive nor crude,this one month of plain-platonic love was adequate for us.
I said i need you,i really need you,but it seems worthless.
I utterly want you,i want you back for good,but everything gone vained.
Everything was a memorable day.

2005-10-19T14:17:00.000-07:00

*Manifestation of retard*

I'M BORNED FREE.
No more tyranny.
No more torture authority.
It's gonna end in a agony way.

Maybe memories

2005-10-18T17:37:00.000-07:00

Maybe memories

Today is a chilly weather,i guess it's due to the heavily rain.
There's a poem i would liked to share,it's according to how i felt for the past week.
A chronic thoughts scratched over me.
It's the end,my dear.
I gave it up,i don't gave a damn.
It's time to put away all the incessant things asides.
I shall sustained all the pain,my dear.
All the lullaby we sang is catchy,but i drowned everything away.
No more broken hearted,i promised.
It's real this time,i shall screamed out my pain one last time.
I shall choked all my sorrow into scraped of tiny pieces of paper.
This is my pilgrimage trip of agony,now i'm letting go everything.
Let it be pain-free,makes everything enchanting again.
I'm happy once again,because it's bearable again.
Just lose everything one day,i think it's a great thing.

**I carry the things that remind me of you,In loving memory of the one that was so true.**

Letter to you

2005-10-18T02:47:00.000-07:00

''Old picture,picture without content''

Can't you see that I want to be
There with open arms,
It's empty tonight and I'm all alone,
Get me through this one,
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you, I'm writing again,
These letters to you aren't much I know,
But I'm not sleeping, you're not here,
The thought stops my heart,
No more looking, I've found home.

This period of feeling is factual,i'm a dupe of your love.
I'd delivered the brink of deliverance,but it's all over.
Everything turned material,our earthly life.
Everything turned shabby and lacklustre.
I learned the displined of love,not to feel dismal.
Cede all the love away,all had became cavernous.
The carcase of human is alive,revived.
I'm getting off your clutches,relinquised all the pain i suffered.
The liaison of mars and venus are bought by invisible man.

2005-10-17T12:16:00.000-07:00

Yesterday,i watched an engaging movies,i'm rented a loads of movies and gonna have a movies marathon.
This movies called''The Notebook''.
It's about a two teenager who first met at the circus funfair.The guy whose name Noah,by Ryan Gosling caught by it eyes.The girl is allie,by Rachel Mcadam.
He wanted to date her out ceaseless,but she refused.Still,she agreed in an eccentric way.
They began a whirlwind courtship that soon blossoms into tender intimacy.Apparently,the young couple is quickly separated by aillie's upper-class parents who insist that Noah isn't right for her although they think he's a terrifically a nice boy.
Several years pass,Noah had built himself a house with all his tribulation and allie had gone into college and met a fantastic man,whose financially-power.They began their court-ship and thought she could forgot the past.
Eventually,when they meet again,their passion is rekindled,forcing allie to choose between her soulmate and class order.
She chose Noah because she feels she's being herself,but when she's with her class order,things turned different.She become a different person.
This beautiful tale has a particularly special meaning to an older gentleman(James garner) who regularly reads the timeless love story to his aging companion(Gena rowlands)

I feel that it's a best-selling novel by nicholas sparks.
The Notebook is a heart-warming and heartbreaking and will capture you in its sweeping and emotional force.
Therefore,I gave a two-thumbs up.
A quote''Behind every great love is a great story''

2005-10-16T16:16:00.000-07:00

Raining days bought about the fallacy.
The melody of ''wonderful'' by Everclear is spinning within my mind.
The indication of showing your hatred,remorseful.
Feeling groundless,deluded me into distortion.
The cellphones lying around my bed,i wanna dump them away.
If i'm prepared,i would picked up the call you used to call.
I hate you from lying to me again and again,all you want is revenge.
Revengeful is all you longing for.All your sweet-talking had diminished into hoarse and ugly voice.Your tone shows your anger,fidget and uneasy.
We are under the cork trees,chanting the melodies we used to.
Now,it seemed apathetics,numb and emotionless.Ample of glory had turn into ashes.
You shall burned in alive and buried with memories.
I'm your seeker inside your mind,breaking the boundaries between you and me.

*I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow*

2005-10-15T17:51:00.000-07:00

Cake, i will survive

At first I was afraid.
I was petrified.
I kept thinking I could never live
Without you by my side.
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong.
I grew strong.
I learned how to get along.

And so you're back from outer space.
I just walked in to find you here
Without that look upon your face.
I should have changed my fucking lock.
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
You're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live.
I've got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart.
I'm trying hard to mend
The pieces of my broken heart.
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself.
I used to cry.
But now I hold my head up high.

And you'll see me with somebody new.
I'm not that stupid little person
Still in love with you.
And so you thought you'd just drop by,
And you expect me to be free.
But now I'm saving all my lovin'
For someone who's lovin' me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
You're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live.
I've got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

2005-10-14T11:06:00.000-07:00

Woke up Fucking early,because i was call on by ''M''
He screwed me up by reproaching me,cause' i didn't woke him up on time for work.
'Okay whatever.'
Severely,he sent me message''You bitch''
Nonetheless,i don't give a fuck about it.
It was miraculous whereby i woken up earlier than usual.
I'd was awaken by a nosily voice,mom patter me to wake up and prepare for lunch.
Eventually, i realised it was half-past three.
I decided to be ''idle'' and being a impersonal objects which you rarely see me that.
So i checked my mail and update my blog abit,rotting most importantly.
Goddess,i'm chilling out with my friends!BYe...

Baby set me free
From this misery
I can't take this no more
Since you went away
Nothing's been the same
Don't know what I'm living for Here I am
So alone
And there's nothing in the world I can do:
Until you're back here baby
Miss you, want you , need you so
Until you're back here, baby
There's a feeling inside I want you to know
You are the one and I can't let you go So I told you lies
Even made you cry

Back here/BB mak

Transmission of love

2005-10-13T21:36:00.000-07:00

Who wanna punk'd me?

So tender
Remember october sweet pretender.
Catapulted, insulted
Your altruistic mind,allure you to the bed.
A form of amatory.
Roses returned to sender
Created, now faded
Memory of love concentrated
I'm jaded, aggravated
I hope it's not too late and

What the hell is wrong with me
I handed in a guilty plea
Along with an apology

he must know psychology
I know I've been through this before
I don't know why I'm back for more
he's a tricky tractor beam
Always has always been

he'll take you
Down tonight
Put up a fight now,he'll knock your lights out, taking you
Down all right
Waving the white flag warning,he'll be gone by morning.

It doesn't matter who you are,i'm moving you to the mundane world.
I could see the innermost vividly.
I close my eyes,it's just a minor movement you made.
I'm intensed,fragment of thin-glasses crawling over me.
You are an etcher which engraved with acids.
The feeling evolved rapidly,evinced the love i'm laying on you.
Excroriated the skins of your severly,without excrutiation.
You are my soul reviver.

Hello,again

2005-10-13T01:34:00.000-07:00

Life goes randomly.

We drinked the same brand.

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see

still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down - come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us

if I was to give in - give it up
- and then
take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one
that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

Dishwalla,Angels or devils

2005-10-12T00:52:00.000-07:00

Tonight is a cosy and draughty night.
I went to trim my hair,ameliorate the better look.
Nothing significant,My clique called me and asked whether i'm slacking with them.
I agreed and met them up at causeway control station.
It's hard to contact them as she is without a phone.Thus,Another of my friend lost her phone carelessly on the cab.
Talk about that,i think it's unjustifiable.
Why can't the driver returned to the office,that's dumb.
I hope she get a new phone as soon as possible.
Afterwhich,they went to grab a bite at the food court.
I'm so sicked of the food there,it's tasteless with added MSG.
We just slacked around and mopped around the pasar malam,nothing fanatical.
Food is appealing,there's varieties of junk foods.
But i guess it's fattening,I'M AFRAID OF FATS!
Moreover,we shared bucks and bought some cracker home.
Fuck,the auntie seems unhappy when i requested for another plastic bag.
It doesn't cost much,isn't it?
Are they brainless,selfish?
It symbolized the singaporeans their propensity,they are apalling.
YUCKS!They are disgracing.

Aftermath,we went on our own way.
I guess it's an enjoyable night.

This may never start.
We could fall apart.
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?

So get back, back, back to where we last stand.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

Sugarcult,memory

2005-10-10T00:27:00.000-07:00

Saturday night,long breezy wind.
The howling of the wind went through the trees without end,causing the skin on my neck to prickle.
Estactic feeling blown over me.
Compelling to walk the path with him,i agreed.
It bridge the usual gap between me and him.
He swayed my hair,like little kids.

Standing closer to me,cauterize feeling within me.
I stand by you,watched you leaning closer.
You were just like shooting stars,crossing my mind.
You held my waistline,like it is slender.
Your cheery lips touching my glossy mouth.
Fidgeting or not,i did not.
I leaned back to you,interlocked my tongues on yours.
The feeling is like a morsel,never-ending.
With a fish-burger,coke smell.

You are my lullaby.
But,you mistrust me.
You said i'm insensitive,i'm not.
Merely on my sub-concious.
The feeling was fake,you told me.
Not fake,but real.
I'm into you,you are my alluby.
I wished i could be by your sides.
We mingled together,overcome obstacles.
Please forgives me,I'll always be right there.

2005-10-08T00:40:00.000-07:00

I'd just ended my paper today.
Something just hit upon me,finding reason to create a picture.
My class were splited apart after the examination.
Everything went silent.
Even my form-teacher Ms teresa cried.
I was flabberghasted with tears flowing down my cheeks.
Everything ended like this,it was all yellow.
I was shattered with pain.

I'd started to mourn.
Reminisce all the dumbass things we did.
There's laughter in-between us.
Tears and sadness aroused me.
All i remembered is 4 fortitude won the glory.
Regardless of how the teachers detested us,screwed us.
We are the awesome teenage mob.
I picked up to stay calm.
I try to hold back my countless droplets of tears.

Remember:
Teachers,you are one i used to hate.
All the punishment we used to endure.
We are the problematic kids.
But there's something in your eyes,something in your smile.
Something as in the way you moved me.
You make me want to sing,make me wanna dance.
Thou,i'm falling for your lecture and preaching.
For all,you are the mightiest of all.

2005-10-04T09:19:00.000-07:00

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Why,Avril lavigne

2005-09-29T11:11:00.000-07:00

Today was another shitty day.
Everything ruined and destructed.
Arrived in school for chemistry lesson.
I'm late and it turned out to be maths lesson who has ended earlier,fuck.
School seems sucky with assholic-teachers.
They are brainless,bitchy,retarded.
Who to blame,they contributed the knowledge.
Sometimes i feel that they are blood-thirsty and hard hearted people.
Barbaric in the sense of fucker.
There's a saying'' Needs must when the devil drives.
We are often forced to do things that we normally would not do..
BULLLSHIT!It's endless tyranny!
I'm struggling with schwork,revision.

Sometimes i tend to do things leisurely.
Sometimes i feel i'm procrastinating my things.
It's urgent,but i'm drawing a bead on my targets,aim.
Envisage the future in one's mind.
By ensuring all the hard-work have been pay off,i strived hard to achieve excellent academic results.

How to say i love a person when i don't even have that kind-of feeling.
Sorry scum,for being blunt earlier.
I was contrite,really!
I twaddle much craps,but hope you understand.
One say he want ever-lasting happiness,and the other say nothing.

I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho

2005-09-28T08:58:00.000-07:00

Exams coming,i'm looking forward.
Building the confident i have,reassured myself.
I went through many obstacles one by one.
Teacher came along to acheive excellent result.
We peeps,appreciate.
Although you teachers disgust me sometimes.
But without you,life is dull.
Thank you.

Today i feel fucking shitty.
I hate all the routines today.
Send my cousin off to chiangmai.
Bon voyage!
Times flies fast,it's been 2months since she stayed with us.
Good and tough,hard to say.

I'm sick of everything,really.
fuck it.

DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE LYRICS

2005-09-26T12:10:00.000-07:00

"Different Names For The Same Thing"

Alone on a train aimless in wonder
An outdated map crumbled in my pocket
But I didn't care where I was going
They're all different names for the same place.

The coast just appeared when the sea drown the summer
I've no words to share with anyone
The boundaries of language are quietly cursed
All the different names for the same different.

There are different names for the same things
There are different names for the same things..

2005-09-25T13:45:00.000-07:00

Wishlist:
To get good result.
New Mp3
Digital camera

Friends don't abandoned me.
You guys are the only one who could bring me through all the obstacles.
You mates make me trusted with pride and dignity.
Apparently,our sarcastic and humillation remark remained non-stop.
Shall we don't give a damn about it!
The memories remained clearly in my mind.
Neither misty nor foggy.
I'm glad you guys are fine and still flourishing.
We have goals to achieved,dreams to pursue.
With our constant movitation,we can succeed in higher level.

''Aware of the indulgence of study,you bridge the usual gap of school authorities''

The spritual of romance

2005-09-24T08:34:00.000-07:00

When we have loved,my love.
Panting and pale from love,
Then from your cheeks,my love.
Scent of the sweat i love:
And when our bodies love
Now to relax in love,
Even still more i love
Our mingled breath of love.

There's a saying
fulfillment is natural and not to be ashamed of.
Ecstasy is a state of the soul transmitted through the body.
Union consists of two people openingto the same-being

2005-09-23T23:16:00.000-07:00

I had a weird dream,you can never ever think of that.
I can't recall the exact scene.
I remembered i was alone at home.And i was online i remembered
he just came back from his camp and asked me to call him later. Therefore,i went offline while awaiting for his call.
I felt that he was feeling despondence,and constantly blaming himself.
Literally, i received a call from my buddy.
He wants me to call him and wish a happy birthday,so i agreed.
I called him and heard the threesome in a phone-conference which included my buddy,his friend which i know and the few kids.
I was devastated and after-which,we sang happy-birthday song.
I remembered he told me that he was sadden over some issues,i don't want to ask him much.
Enough said,I sat with him in a wooden bench and chatted for hours.

''Memory lane is just a hallucination,it signal the moment and it ended as soon as you woke up from ur dreamland.''

Untitled

2005-09-23T11:15:00.000-07:00

I stumbled upon the scene of tears and pain.
Feeling suffocated,became hysterical.
It is difficult to control the overall emotional.
Biting my nails as i tried holding back my tears like water tap.
Convincing by telling myself to calm down.
Some form of catharsis,i reassured myself again.
Without the scintilate of oneself,life is boring once again.
Spreading goodwill and happiness of effervescent personality seems priceless.
Sprinting away,for its good.
The glistening tears in my eyes sparked off another round of whispering.

The caress would soothe the pain
You never know the reason of living,till you start living today

Schmuck best artist..

2005-09-18T11:59:00.000-07:00

Dirty little secret

2005-09-17T09:13:00.000-07:00

The scandalous of a rich lifestyle

Life's a bitch.
paparazzi showing all over the sites.
we stamped over the annoying noise.
we heard the humble glass sitting in the corridor.
we made it big just to show off the trend.

Dear everybody

2005-09-16T22:42:00.000-07:00

I spend my nights dead face down on my floor,
but the drugs aren't really working anymore.
The nights are mostly just despressed
from staring at my open chest.
I'm bleeding and I'm heartless but I'm yours.
And i'm scratching down every blurry scene
on the mattress where you used to sleep and dream.
I'd rather chew on broken glass
then keep on living in the past
and wasting time on words I know you didn't mean.

Dear everybody, or whoevers listening.
I think I'm going to do me in this time
This is all overrated, waiting on my roof again
This is the end of my so called life
I haven't seen the sun in about a week
and I'm keeping all sharp objects out of reach.
I finally know the taste of love
it's a cross between cheap beer and blood
with an aftertaste of dry sarcastic speech.

And so I guess it's safe to say
that we both knew that I'd end up this way
With a brain that's clueless and unsure
Eyes that hard that ever work
But I guess that's fine I rarely use them anyway

Dear Everybody, This is the end of my so called life .

Melancholy on my face.

2005-09-16T01:57:00.000-07:00

I want to die, i wanna die right-away.
Deprived myself over sadness and solitary.
Life is such tragedy.
HOW SHOULD I CARRY ON WITH MY LIFE?
Sometimes i hate myself,i hate myself entirely.
Someday,somehow,I wish i could make things wonderful again.
I close my eyes and ask myself,how should i ripped off with this agony.
There's hearsay that suicide is the best solution.
Should i start from the scratch?Should i bandished myself in this earthy place.
I'd scrutinize the riddle,finding 1000 solutions&probe with the resolution.
I'd hope there's a revertion so that i could revert the secrets hidden behind.
I start to wonder,i wonder whether my mindset is becoming nasty.
I wish i could excavate a hole and dug myself inside.
My dream is far away.
I'm hollow,emptied and melancholy seems to tail me all the life road.
I wanna turn back my life cycle.
I wish i could buried myself alive and everything would be astounding again.
There is just my wishful ass-thinking.

''It worth a grieve for the people.
Achievements have been a source of tremendous joy and pride to me.''

The blurry scene of ur birthday

2005-09-13T09:49:00.000-07:00

Ended my combine science,i felt peaceful.
Not too hard,not too easy,as long you tried your best.
''NOT MUCH SELF-CONFIDENCE.AS LONG AS I PUT IN EFFORT.''
Recently,suffered from insomnia due to inability to sleep.
I'd had been mugging everynight without failed.*SICK*
Alright,today is my cousin emma 21st birthday.
I'd would like to wish her a very happy birthday,you must be elated that your
birddead is on your way.
Okay,i went on to clark quek to celebrate her birthday.
We met up with her french male friends and the others.
I'd think he's a humourist and corny.HE'S CUTE.
Thus we have a few gulp of drinks,it was eventually in a high-sprited mode.
Met her thai-friend too,it's unbelievable that she's actually 23 years old.
That crude.Anyway,she's aura of beauty and amiable.
I'd got abit hangover but the feeling is awesome.
The bouncer is a fat-ass.
Aftermath,the french guy whose name is thomas is a dopes and big headed person.
But overall,i think his cutiness attract me.Dub,he's attached.
Thus,all the best.

The end

Books can be my treasure..

2005-09-12T05:59:00.000-07:00

It's the fear buried inside.
Combined science paper is on my way.
I'm terrifically on tenterhooks.
Confidence is lacking,i wished i could become more proficient.
How i wished i could have done better.
Not the time to think about love,why should i?
Books is followed by the denseness,really burying myself study.
This is the best thing i could do.
Thank you for the venom,i thank you once.
You are my only one,books;you are my great achievement.
If i have the choice,i choose books.
I'd spent my entire l life with books.
I'd swept farting from the ass coz of books.
Books is my dazzling starlite.
Sometimes i'd detest them,screw and hammer them.
But then,once again,Books is the best gift on earth.
Treasure your best times with books before u feel remorse.

Wonderful,it's a beautiful thing..

2005-09-11T01:17:00.000-07:00

"Hey, ain't life wonderful? Wonderful,
wonderful, wonderful... Isn't it wonderful now?"

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now

Na na na na na na na

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I like to laugh so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just wanna my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Somedays I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now..

*Wonderful/everclear*

2005-09-11T01:02:00.000-07:00

Never look in anger,never smile in a broken hearted.
You made your way to the inspired outlay.

Mars and venus

2005-09-07T11:40:00.000-07:00

Disist the pain which come from all the people.
Mars and venus.
They are just far apart.It's unavoidable too.
Mars is de-understandable.
Venus is complicating species.
They live in their own dream world.
Mars is a huge species.
They share love with the venus.
Mars think venus is lovable.
Venus think mars is the beautiful ones.
It's a miracles.
Mars think venus is their fires,passion.
The most desirable thing.

Silent in construction.

2005-09-07T11:14:00.000-07:00

Live it real!

The importance of living real and not being like a psychotic to everyone.

Hello,i waited for you

2005-08-31T22:39:00.000-07:00

Hello/i've waited here for you/Everlong/
Tonight/I throw myself into
and out of the red out of her head she sang/
Come down and waste away with me/
down with me/Slow out you wanted it to be/
Over my head/out of my head she sang/
And i wonder/when i sing along with you/
If everything could ever feel this real forever/
If anything could ever be this good again/
the only thing I'll ever ask of you
you've got to promise not to stop when I say when
Breathe out/so I can breathe you in
Hold you in
and now
I know you've always been
out of your head out of my head i sang

Foo fighters,Everlong